WB blogspot

Haha, i dont know what has got into me that i really wanted to have a new blog and it took a couple of before i finally settle down [ but i dont think im really settled with this].

Im still gonna update my main blog [in rakista.com] i cannot just leave the site, i will never. I have a lot of memories in that community, gained a lot of friends and i just love it. I've tried WP but it made me so lazy to change the layouts,haha but i will keep that open, just in case my mind change again and decided to go back there. And another thing is that i started WP with lots of rants at work and i really dont like it. I tried livejournal few minutes ago and again im so tamad to understand everything about it, i manage to update my profile there but never tried to start an entry.buhaha.

Will i be in trouble for creating so many blog accounts and then letting them go when i feel like it?

There's a lot of challenges in my life now, even waking up at night to go to work is a challenge [ i think i've said this before] but still i am here online, making the latest entry for my new blog. I just updated my main blog last night, hayz my thoughts about the economic crisis, the issues going on at work, oi but dont get me wrong i love my work,everybody needs a little motivation, something else to get us thru this semi-charmed kidna life.

psssh, issues at work might be a jinx so i'll skip that now.

Yes i will change the layout of my blog soon and i still have plans of creating a new header for my main blog.

Anyways im into reading a lot of books now and i would greatly appreciate suggestions. Paulo Coelho is my favorite, so far his books made me inspired about life and love.

Brida was the first book that i bought, and i didnt feel any regret for doing so, in fact it made me look for more explanations about life & love. It made me a student hungry for more lessons, wanting to understand how will you be able to see the light on the shoulder of your soulmate...

I promise myself that i'll read the book again, when i got nothing else to do.

Then a friend of mine lend me this book by Francine Rivers "redeeming love" so that i could better understand what "true love" really really means. A sad realization though, only in books like that you'd be able to understand the "man of your dreams" you can never find a Michael Hosea in this kind of miserable & deceitful world. If i'll live like that of my friend who's hoping & waiting for a Michael Hosea i could be wasting my time and in the end will get disappointed for i have waited for a man that only in books & movies exist. I dont know how to change my friend's way of living, maybe i dont have to...just have to let her learn these stuff on her own.

Then I've read 11 Minutes which is my favorite. You better read it on your own.I tried to figure out those 11 minutes before reading the book and was delighted of what it means. But i prefer not to elaborate on this particular book.

And i just finished The Zahir...which is very deep, at some point there i told myself that i cannot comprehend anymore...but that didnt stop me from finishing it. Yes, it was indeed a novel of obsession and i like it.

how can someone let him/herself be an instrument of love and not its master. Well i dont think i'd be able to explain it in my own words, the writer is soooo good at it that im afraid i'd change his own reason/explanation.hahaha.

Its true not all love stories requires "sex" in it. Its one of the reason why i like his books.

And another thing, after reading those books, i find it easier to let go and forgive the love that i lost. And made me believe that one day the right guy will come in the right time. I found a lot of reason why God made me do such things, why he had allow each one of us to suffer and feel pain. It all happens for a reason, its just a matter of being positive in life.

And just to let you guys in to a little secret. I am somewhat hoping that Mike will consider reconciliation, he's not really a bad guy after all, whatever negative things i've said before about him was just my initial reaction. The time that he wanted was the time that i needed to be mature.
I hope to see him again in May 5, he said he wanted to talk to me. And i've been wanting to see him too, but just like what i normally do...holding my horses really tight cuz i dont wanna expect a lot and be sooooo much disappointed in the end. Oh well, whatever happens i know its gonna be another lesson for me.

This is way too much for my 1st entry :)

listening too:Shawn Colvin
i wanna go to the beach,but its raining...